Welcome Aboard

Ha... the sense of satisfaction that you get when you know that you are right. I knew it - he will succumb to the urge. Proven so today. He finally admitted to starting his own blog. :) Told you.

Anyways, good news to me. He is a talented writer, an just adding comments on this blog will not satisfy the crave.

Right on babe. Let's see good pieces from you.

The Remaining Hours...

...before I add another number to the age count. Another year flew by, fast and furious. Things move quickly when you are older. And I don't know how much of the whirldwind I can remember, or significant enough to remember. Another year that passes by very quickly. Short because of the pace, but at the same time it feels very long, because I cannot remember much of it. Nor of the resolutions I made about the same time last year. Which means I did not manage to accomplish any of them, I suppose. So what would be my resolutions for this year? Nothing. So that I do not forget to remember them. I only have wishes. For my family to be healthy and happy. For the price of things to go down, or my income to go up, whichever way it goes. For him to be here, or me to be there. For the heart, to be more open and forgiving (and healthy). For dear friends, whom I have mostly neglected to tell how much they mean to me, to become dearer.

Another year coming. Another going. Nothing stands still. I must learn to accept.

What God Giveth

God puts forth challenges to the people He loves so they can learn and grow to become better people.

Decorum Conundrum

I am supposed to come up with a syllabus for business etiquette, grooming and decorum for the baby consultants - an assignment that I embraced with relish only to find that I cannot think up of materials to put in! Caught between trying not to be so stalwart and admonishing exposed bellies and nose studs, I am at a loss. I have to appear cool too, at the same time - after all they always say I am the coolest manager around ha ha..

Would phrases like 'rings are only for fingers, and studs for the ears' sound cool and still convey the message?

Help!

Prediction Predilection

My horoscope for today:

Nature may abhor a vacuum, but your living space might welcome one with open arms. Start straightening and tidying things up in your house, and you might see this effect spill over into other areas of your life that need it, too. Let's face it -- it's no fun coming home to a big mess, and the longer it goes on, the more everything will pile up. So start cleaning, and see if your head doesn't start to feel a little clearer as well.

Has somebody been watching me? :)

Musings of Today, Yesterday, and Tomorrow

There is so much that is assumed but never said. Presumed and not articulated. Which in the end is left to one's own interpretation. Lesson no 1 in Communications 101, say out loud what you want people to know.

That was my blunder for last week, and that wasn't the first time either. I still make that same mistake, with the same person, even after 18 years. The same for you too. Stubborn people tend to do it more often than others. And we, two of the most stubborn people ever born, are more prone to do so.

Funny how we are so alike despite the North Pole to South Pole differences that people say we project. At the core we are so much alike. Stubborn, egoistic. We understand each other too well, and that is what what we use to hurt one another more often than we care to admit. Perhaps that is what makes you so endearing. Perhaps I am narcissistic in that sense. That's a thought...

Perhaps too, it is my natural instinct to protect myself from the hurt when you are gone. Perhaps it is not even that, it is just that I miss you very much, and I want you around. With all the other commitments ("I have 1000 things to do and 10 days to do them") I lost my priority in your list. After all, you are the ever practical man. I think I should start singing Whitney's Saving All My Love For You now...

Ah well, today brought sunshine, even though I wanted to remain in my gloom, being the cancerian that I am. Like what I have been doing for the past 3 days. You have a way of robbing me of the gloom and switching on the sun in my life. Even with me resisting. You know me too well to wait upon my moodiness to lift.

Funny too that when I think about it, we haven't fought for a long while. It must have been 5 years. Too little time that we have with each other since. I remember the days when we used to fight everyday without fail - those were the days when we were together everyday!

Another month, and you will be gone. Another very short month, considering your travels and travails. Even shorter will be the time you will manage to spend with me... And I don't know what will happen after that. Numb is what I feel right now. No unhappiness, just numb. Not thinking too much. It will hit when you are gone. So you will not see me cry.

Of Lots of Things

Of joy and sadness, of love and hate, of hope and despair, of laughter and tears, of friends and foes, of family and lovers... Things that are going through my mind at the moment. I don't even know where to begin, or to continue to describe what I feel. I don't even have a plan of what to write. These words just flow out. The gamut of things that goes through my mind, no wonder there are zillions of neurons that make up the brain.

This week is a week where hope turns to despair, where anticipation of joy turns to sadness, where not so great news put a hilt on my calm. I am tired. I don't feel so cheerful. I turned down many friends who wanted to see me.

Am I too sensitive, or do I have the right to feel so? The logic part of my brain (which I think is very small) tries to reason it out, but the heart has a way of winning....

Ever heard this song?

I watched the planes come in on the early morning flights
But I could not stand to see them land without you
Now I'm thumbing through my 45's on another endless night
And the same old lines going back in time
Tell me this is nothing new

Well, I feel like Buddy Holly 'cause it's
Raining In My Heart
All the sad songs take me back to you now that we are apart
Now I know how Paul McCartney felt when he got up to say
I wish it was Yesterday
So I sit here playing Solitaire, it's a game I know so well
Ever since that day when you called to say: It's Over

Now I've made my reservation at the Heartbreak Hotel
While I'm living without you
I'm thinking about you, like Only The Lonely do
Well, I feel like Buddy Holly 'cause it's
Raining In My Heart
All the sad songs take me back to you now that we are apart
Now I know what Paul Simon meant by the words he found:
I wish I was Homeward Bound

Well, I feel like Buddy Holly 'cause it's Raining In My Heart
All the sad songs take me back to you now that we are apart
Now I know how Paul McCartney felt when he got up to say
I wish it was Yesterday
I wish it was Yesterday

Alvin Stardust - I Feel Like Buddy Holly @1984

And You Think That You Are Advanced...

Talk about anti-climax. My grandpa, who is 95 and still very healthy - he can still cycle 6km and not even sweat, and I cycle for 10 minutes in the air-cond gym and I feel like collapsing - whom I met over the weekend was giving me advice for my body and soul (he does this every time we meet, and as usual I listen but never practice) and he was telling me that I should do some deep breathing and stretching exercises every morning when I wake up. There I was - while being awed by how flexible he was, and while thinking that I would be screaming pain if I do the same movements - going like 'I have seen these before, where yah?' when it hit me that they are the same movements taught in my 3R classes! Well, it's this really cool (I thought so, at that time at least) class that teaches breathing and stretching techniques that is supposed to be a combined 3-in-1 yoga-taichi-alexander technique class which was supposed to help me reduce stress and remain in an oasis of calm, which I was telling everybody to sign up. And there was Grandpa doing the same movements which he claimed is one of the reasons why he is still very healthy even at 95 (of course he doesn't binge on Whoppers and Coke and doesn't come back from work at 10pm and doesn't reamin in artificially cooled environment for 20 hours a day)! Been doing it all his life too. So much for being cool and forward with this 3R thing! :)

The good thing out of this is that there is a living proof that it does work!

And don't ask me what the R stands for - Rest, Relax and ... Reproduce? Not. :)